Life, Bitch et al

“Zindagi badi kutti cheez hoti hai”
- Unknown

I dunno which movie is this statement from but I guess its just as true as the words itself. The bluntness and conviction with which the protagonist speaks these lines gets etched in your subversive mind. Well it surely doesn’t happen due to the actor but yes it got into mine due to the sheer applicability of this fact “life IS a bitch”.

Sometimes I just feel that despite all that you have been through in life, with all the ups and downs that have been witnessed and some of the biggest F ups… Life still comes back and this time comes back even more strongly to screw the happiness. Just when you think that things cannot get any worse and its an uphill, roller coaster ride to the acme of happiness… You find yourself nose diving into the deepest abyss of the unceremonial unhappiness…

Then you sit and analyze, where did I go wrong and then put some more pressure which doesn’t add any relief to the sullen mood and in the end when none seems to work you just end up cursing God. I do it too and do it quite very often too. Infact I am doing it right now and some of my curses start with “One day when I am up there with You, I will make You pay for all this…” and then I come back to the stark realities of the daily life.
The swearing doesn’t help but for the moment of desperation when everything you ever wanted to say and do, you do to show someone…

I guess am too screwed up in my mind and just too overwhelmed with the thought that surrounds me but the fact still remains and that is with all my so called wisdom and experiences that I have gained, with all my education and the games that I have played, with all the competitions that I have survived and all the mouths I have made shut… I still do believe that “Zindagi badi hi Bitch hai”…